Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Sometimes...A poem

Sometimes journeys
Have no destination
Just floating along
Like an arrow lost

Sometimes tears
Have no purpose
Just flowing along
Like a river flooded

Sometimes fears
Have no reality
Just catching along
Like a spider's web

Sometimes thoughts
Have no meaning
Just standing still
Like trees growing

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Here I am...a poem

Here I am, walking thru long grass
Bending and bowing under foot
The moon peaks out for a cameo
Smiling ginger light on my cheek
And as she hides behind clouds, I cry

Here I am, after all I've been through
Loved for heart and soul, for it all
The sun shines for a moment
Caressing gentle light on my arms
And as she hides behind clouds, I cry

Here I am, thinking too much again
About the future, the past
The wind dances around me
Whispering quietly in my ear
And as she hides behind clouds, I cry

Here I am, waves over my shoulder
Washing away, what I truly want
The ocean torments me
And I run away, far and farther
And as she hides behind clouds, I cry

Here I am, a womb for the world
Mother Bear pacing relentlessly
Praying to the stars
And I can't embrace it all
And as she hides behind clouds, I cry

Piano notes...a poem

Piano notes, dancing keys
Ocean at night, floating
Alone, with the moon
Waves lull gently
Back and forth, back and

Waves cut into me
Open to the moon
Arms swimming in a cross
Eyes closed to the rhythm
Back and forth, back and

Sharks circle round
Smell the blood in you
Or am I there, all alone
Forests look to see
Back and forth, back and

Light dims the face
Ocean at night
Terror in depth
Open your eyes and see
Back and forth, back and

Light from below
Dances with music
Look, keep looking
Past the blur, past the salt
Back and forth, back and

Night is not the enemy
Of it all, and I
Float defeated, determined
Out to sea...
Back and forth, back and

Vampire...a poem

Just beyond grasp
Darkness lies
Tree top moon
Floating forest
She appears
Snow dances
Dress sweeps
Silent air
Beautiful face
Hair envelopes
Warm kiss
Screams swim
Powder footprints
Blow away

Friday, September 2, 2011

Living out of our comfort zone, lessons from a spider

I dreamt of a black spider last night, with long elegant legs. I put her in a small jar and watched her as a fly flew over and she caught it and ate it. This fascinated me somehow and I watched as she weaved her web around her pray. A moment later her long legs reached over the edge of the glass as she made her way out of her confinement. I panicked. What if she gets lost? What if she gets hurt? What if she is poisonous and harms someone? I cared for this spider and wanted to protect her. I made her a new home, a taller jar she could not climb out of. With love I placed a small container of water so she could be nourished, and kept the lid open so she can catch her food if a fly was to pass.  When her new home was ready I searched for my spider and could not find her. She was loose and I panicked that she was gone, and scared that I could no longer protect her as she set out into the big and dangerous world.
  After waking I looked up the meaning of the spider as a totem to see what message spider was bringing me. Spider totem means the following: Spider is the weaver connecting the knowledge of the past with the possibilities of the future.  Spider cautions us not to get locked into the illusion that has made you what you think you are.  We are locked into that illusion because it has become our "comfort zone", and it is our fears of the unknown and untested which keep us in that zone. It is far easier to live in the hell we know, than to stick our mental and emotional toes out into the world and chance discovering that there is another way which may be better for us.  Spider is telling us that the possibilities for each of us is only limited by our own view of ourselves. Notice that the web constantly grows, outward, still connected to that small center space. It is always reaching, always expanding, never satisfied with the status quo. When something of value get caught in the web, it is taken back to that small center and utilized; never wasted. It may be stored for later use, but it is never wasted.  The next time you come upon spider weaving its web, stop to really look. Notice the beauty and symmetry and balance; the careful and intricate design. Spider is telling you to have the courage to reach out and create your own tomorrows; to break out of the illusion that has you locked in a time-step, and discover who and what you truly are.

  After learning about the Spider totem, it is easy to interpret my dream. I am both the spider as well as the one who is trying to confide the spider to protect it from harm. But the spider totem teaches a valuable lesson, to put fear aside that may be keeping you back from taking chances and making changes in your life. By creating a safe little haven fulfills our necessities and makes us feel secure, we are still living in a way that keeps us from living a life that our full potential.